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Dr. Fryer was wrong. Not everyone believed Joe.
"No," said Connie.
"No what?" asked Alvin. It was breakfast. Joe hadn't come downstairs yet. Alvin and Connie hadn't said a word since "Here's the eggs" and "Thanks."
Connie was drawing paths with her fork through the yolk stains on her plate. "Don't do another reading with Joe."
"I wasn't planning on it."
"Dr. Fryer told you to believe it, didn't he?" She put her fork down. "But I didn't believe Dr. Fryer."
Connie got up from the table and began washing the dishes. Alvin watched her as she rattled the plates to make as much noise as possible. Nothing was normal anymore. Connie was angry as she washed the dishes. There was a dishwasher, but she was scrubbing everything by hand. Nothing was as it should be. Alvin tried to figure out why he felt such dread.
"You will do a reading with Joe," said Connie, "because you don't believe Dr. Fryer. You always insist on verifying everything for yourself. If you believe, you must question your belief. If you doubt, you doubt your own disbelief. Am I not right?"
"No." Yes.
"And I'm telling you this once to have faith in your doubt. There is no truth whatever in his God-damned tarot."
In all these years of marriage; Alvin could not remember Connie using such coarse language. But then she hadn't said god-damn; she had said God- damned, with all the theological overtones.
"I mean," she went on, filling the silence. "I mean how can anyone take this seriously? The card he calls Strength -- a woman closing a lion's mouth, yes, fine, but then he makes up a God-damned story about it, how the lion wanted her baby and she fed it to him." She looked at Alvin with fear. "It's sick, isn't it?"
"He said that?"
"And the Devil, forcing the lovers to stay together. He's supposed to be the flrstborn child, chaining Adam and Eve together. That's why Iocaste and Laios tried to kill Oedipus. Because they hated each other, and the baby would force them to stay together. But then they stayed together anyway because of shame at what they had done to an innocent child. And then they told everyone that asinine lie about the oracle and her prophecy."
"He's read too many books."
Connie trembled. "If he does a reading of you, I'm afraid of what will happen."
"If he feeds me crap like that, Connie, I'll just bite my lip. No fights, I promise."
She touched his chest. Not his shirt, his chest. It felt as ff her flnger burned right through the cloth. "I'm not worried that you'll fight," she said. "I'm afraid that you'll believe him."
"Why would I believe him?"
"We don't live in the Tower, Alvin!"
"Of course we don't."
"I'm not Iocaste, Alvin!"
"Of course you aren't."
"Don't believe him. Don't believe anything he says."
"Connie, don't get so upset." Again: "Why would I believe him?"
She shook her head and walked out of the room, The water was still running in the sink. She hadn't said a word. But her answer rang in the room as if she had spoken: "Because it's true."